Sometimeschangingisjusttoseehowmucheffortyouhaveputin,
in.trying.to.bring.me.back.to.my.original-self.
Somtimes, I am thinking if you noticed any changes in me for these past few weeks. Every now and then, the same question has been popping up inside my mind. "Should I or should I not?" At times, I cannot stand it when you did/talk those things to me. Maybe you can say that that is not what you meant, however, it is the usage of words that make me just go "WHAT THE HECK?" Ever since that incident onwards, I had not been in my usual self whenever I am with you (if you notice) because I am awaiting, awaiting to see how you would convince me that I should be back to that usual self 'cause I just felt that the things that I did in the past are useless. No matter how hard I tried, it just got back to the same result and I really don't know why. Maybe because I pin high hopes on you? Or is it because what I thought about you wasn't what you are but just my wishful thinking?
