♥Im afraid =( ♥

Ok, Im going back to school on monday, back to twss, and go to sec5 . I cant make it to poly and ... ... whatever it is, its a fact that I am unable to enter poly and I had to go back to sec5. I gonna get a good cert and enter a course that I want.

Im afraid that I will miss all my chrysler classmates when Im in the classroom. Like weechuan whom I also siao around with and the one who provide tibits. Huimin, whom I also go to school with. Yiting, whom I alway tio shoot with. Weihao, whom I alway turned to when I hav doubts in maths qns and the one who provide chocolate. Tricia and nabilah, whom I alway go down to art lesson with. Afiqah and raihannah, whom I alway laughed with. Sonia,mazdi,zulk,alif... ... all of them ! one more one more, and also tao guang, ( see i really put ur name big big, so u owe me one sweesen earthquake!) whom i always sit cab with.

I will be like alone. I hate to be alone. Huimin and weechuan know me well. When I go to the toilet or whatever, I will drag either one of them. I really hate to be alone =( but well, at least I still have my jasmine =] yvette they all. Yeah. So it wont be like totally only myself. If i didnt get into jasmine class, I still have youxiang and huiyi in the class next door. haha.

I have to like attend chinese, eng, math, amath, sci, art and pe lesson again ! ART AND PE. Omg. I hate that. Art =.=" Nafa Test =.="

Haiish. gonna work damn hard this year. Weechuan waiting for me in RP, weihao,huimin,afiqah waiting for me in NP. Huiqi waiting for me in PJC. But huiqi, haha, i wont go to pjc. Dont cry when you didnt see me in pjc nxt year hor. haha.

One year will passby fast? or the ticking of the clocks will tick very slow?

I told myself that Im not going to cry.

I will miss out alot of gathering with chrysler too =(

I gonna tie up my hair, wakup early in the morning, squeeze up the bus, wear sch uniform... ... ... ... ... ... ...

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yes, TAN SHER LEE, you can do it !!!!!! & I will always be a part of chrysler =DD


Everyone just move on,
& Im stuck in secondary school.
But come whatever obstacles it is,
I will still move on ..
continue with my path
& I will catch up one day.

I know you are avoiding me,
I know you sort of look down on me,
I know everything unless Im wrong.
I am giving up. Its no use clinging on to it.
no use clining on to something that will not come true.
Yeah. Be realistic.


Im gonna SMILE =]
Be the happy mehmeh that wc wants to see =]



*My awful smile =.=*

♥Im Happy ... =DDDD♥

Since I had already submitted my choices.
I will worry it after CNY. Budden, my CNY mood already destroyed half le lah.
Anyway, All the best to me :)


Replied of tags :

Raihanah!: Don't be sad sher lee. You did your best! Cheer up *smiles*
SL : Thanks alot . yea, at least i told myself, i tried my best :D

PEISHIH :D: thanks ! dun b too sad barhs , cheer up ! (: & jiayous
SL : Thanks alot :DD

nelson: ehh poly is confirm slack enough for u to cope wif O lvl as well. poly only is strictly 5-days week n they hv long holidays in between for u to study. if u dun retake ur o lvl this yr, im afraid u cant combine cert if u wan retake next time, this means that u hv to retake all subjects if u wan use o lvl to go other courses. cheer up! confirm i will encourage u to sign up 4 o lvl this yr again. its gd to show a better cert when u work. ehh if can, u go opt back to twss, then wait for JAE result and if u can get in to poly, quit twss. but dun inform sch that first.
SL : yeah, i will chiong my studies during the long poly breaks. Yes, I gonna retake it this year no matter what, cause I dont wish to waste another one year if i gonna change course. Even if Im not changin ccourse, my cert at least look nicer with all the pass, forget about am and art, haha. But going back to twss is not easy too, i think ? cause I have 4subjects pass. After i get my posting then see how bah. Thanks alot leh =D

WH*: ya. i know coz the picture is taken by me! haha
SL : omg? Taken by you? nah. The professional photographer is me, not you. I take nice sunrise, okay? Lol.

♥Tell me how to forget about everthing and just move on.♥

To repeat one more year or to just go to the Information Technology courses that Im not really interested in ? THEY encourage or rather wants me to repeat one more year, that wasnt what they said few days ago. They left the decision to me, but now ... ? It not that I dont like the IT courses but that not my interest only. However, I can still, you know, like the courses. Fine, I told them while studying in poly, I still retake my olevel (only for certain subjects). They told me that either I concentrate on repeating one more year or focus all on my IT. They said I will be unable to cope when I study IT and retaking olevel at the same time. I know it will be hard to cope, but i seriously doesnt feel like going back to repeat unless I really cant get into poly. Yes, if i get into the IT courses, I still wanna retake some of the subjects. If i did well, I wanna quit my IT course and transfer to some hospitality resort management course. However, if i like my IT courses, i will remain. There's no disadvantage even if I didnt change course as, at least, my cert look nicer without all the C6. I know you're all afraid that Im unale to cope well but I will try my best. No, i will not try my best, I must do my very best. I will just have to manage my time well, not to be lazy like before. But, whatever I said now is of no use unless I manage to even get into the IT courses. I met their entry requirement, budden, the cop can only be met after deduction of my cca bonus points. Another thing, the dateline for repeating is today. If I , let say, did not manage to enter the IT courses, I got to find a way back to school. Damn. Whatever it is, let me enter the IT courses first. Tonight will be sending in my form. No return back. That it. No regret, please.
I hate myself for doing so badly. Truly regret =( I know there's no chance of turning back. I'll have to move on. Teach me or guide me how to forget about everythings and just move on .. ... on and on ... ...

Nobody knows, even when I cried in the night.

♥ Face the music . ♥

That it. Got back my results. Tears just rolled down. I did badly, extremely badly. I failed my sci and art with D7. I cant believe that I failed my art but the emath that im worried about was a pass. English was a pass. Combine humanities was a pass. Retake chinese but still a B3 & its needless to say about Amath. What to do? I will just spam the first few choices with all the RP courses follow by NP and SP that i am eligible for. Yeah. just pray hard that they accept me. & Yar, my parent does not have much reactions to my result. They already prepared. Sorry to disappoint them.

Dont ask. Really, please dont ask =(

♥ Day before release of Olvl result ~♥

That it ! 15hours more and I gonna face the music. Yes. I getting my olvl result tomorrow at 2pm. Im mentally prepared to ..... ..... FAIL. Really. Its a goner. Sad.

My parent said, if i pass, they gonna strike 4D on wednesday. omg. They are so directly shooting me. Yeah, at least they think that way cause at least, if i really cant make it. They are prepare. Yeah.

♥ Pi li pa la , pi li pa ya, tatadadada ♥

Look at my cousin , Chai Kah Yeng :

Chrysler Class Chalet :)

29/12/08 - 01/01/09 .

Day One :

Met up with taoguang first and cabbed to lot1 to meet the rest. Was carrying alot of things, bo bian take cab. Or shld i say im lazy to take bus ? LOL . & I think I haven pay the cab fee to taoguang. Free ride free ride ~~!! We are the first to reach. Yes, the first ! Never been the most early before. Cheers to me :D Everyone came and off we go to our chalet !! We were carrying alots of things & knew what? We blocked the mrt door. Lol. Hard for people to go out and in. No choice . Remembered that there was one young man, so pathetic, standing between the whole group of us. Really, the secenrio is really very pathetic for him :( Reached pasir ris, went up to macdonald for lunch. shld have headed to the chalet first but afiqah have not reached yet. She holding on to the papers and need her to get the key. Slacked awhile. Took 403 and zoommmm , off we go to the chalet. Excited Excited :D

Reached the chalet. Unpacked our bags and settle our items. Fathin came & we play UNO. The loser had to went over to the next door and offered drinks. Fathin lost, thus, she went over to knock on the next door with her bf. They are so Steady and On, just get up and went over to offer drinks. Then, the rest watched dvd while me and weechuan went to pasir ris shopping centre to buy stuffs for bbq. We had a hard time carrying all those stuffs back. It only just the two of us. The rest phoned us when we are on our way back, we really are unable to answer the calls because we got no free hand. You said to put the bags down but you see, there's really no space. When we almost reached, weechuan and me was like walked 1min, put down the bags one minutue. Haha.

At night, went for bicycle ride. Okay, I dont know how to ride 2-wheel bicycle. You can laugh all you want. Trying to learn at first, butfailed :( So in the end, tg lobang me. Lol. He's like my dog. I order him to go here and there and to overtake others. I screamed when we are going down a slope. Omg. Its really scary.

Then I forgot what we done after that at the chalet. I knew that I only slept for 3 hours for the first day. Haha.

Day 2 :

It's bbq-ing day !!

Watched sunrise . Woohoo. It really nice. However, theres was only me , afiqah and weihao. We went there just in time for the sun to rise. It was so beautiful. Awww~~~



Went back and made french toast. Woo~ Quite a no. of breads are chaota & we said that that is seaweed =.="

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6pm !! Time for our bbq =D & the rest of the classmates came :D

Day 3 :

Escape theme park. It was fun fun fun and more fun. & I screamed screamed screamed ! Private ship was like OMG . Continously riding the ride for 3 times. SCARY ! really ! Then wet and wild, the feeling was like so shuang when it drop from 15m high. HAHA. Rihanah got shocked of my scream. And, we were so so so so wet. LOl. Went into haunted house. Ok, first time im going in. Damn scared. Started screaming when we just entered. Worst, weihao kept scaring me. Throughout the whole way, i was scrreaming. Geez, paiseh :( The spining ride was like great also. Scream and sccream. WH even took a video of me screaming. SHY >.<" Left escape at 8plus & back to chalet for countdown . Im the joker of the escape. They laughed badly when i screamed :( haha. My first time in esscape ~

10, 9 ,8, ... ... , 3, 2, 1 !!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!

shouted across the field to those ppl who are bbq-ing outside. Fun fun ! Had difficulties sending out messages. Its always like that, last year too. Ha .

I ended my 2008 with screaming =D

Day four :

Checkout at 10am. Went to pasir ris shoppin centre mac and ate breakfast. Rushed to the toilet 3 times. Siian. lol. Then trained home. Was like sleeping throughout.

Photos :

"ZUL..."
"ZIANA"
"RIHANNAH"

I love this game man. Its was really fun and nice :D