♥Tell me how to forget about everthing and just move on.♥

To repeat one more year or to just go to the Information Technology courses that Im not really interested in ? THEY encourage or rather wants me to repeat one more year, that wasnt what they said few days ago. They left the decision to me, but now ... ? It not that I dont like the IT courses but that not my interest only. However, I can still, you know, like the courses. Fine, I told them while studying in poly, I still retake my olevel (only for certain subjects). They told me that either I concentrate on repeating one more year or focus all on my IT. They said I will be unable to cope when I study IT and retaking olevel at the same time. I know it will be hard to cope, but i seriously doesnt feel like going back to repeat unless I really cant get into poly. Yes, if i get into the IT courses, I still wanna retake some of the subjects. If i did well, I wanna quit my IT course and transfer to some hospitality resort management course. However, if i like my IT courses, i will remain. There's no disadvantage even if I didnt change course as, at least, my cert look nicer without all the C6. I know you're all afraid that Im unale to cope well but I will try my best. No, i will not try my best, I must do my very best. I will just have to manage my time well, not to be lazy like before. But, whatever I said now is of no use unless I manage to even get into the IT courses. I met their entry requirement, budden, the cop can only be met after deduction of my cca bonus points. Another thing, the dateline for repeating is today. If I , let say, did not manage to enter the IT courses, I got to find a way back to school. Damn. Whatever it is, let me enter the IT courses first. Tonight will be sending in my form. No return back. That it. No regret, please.
I hate myself for doing so badly. Truly regret =( I know there's no chance of turning back. I'll have to move on. Teach me or guide me how to forget about everythings and just move on .. ... on and on ... ...

Nobody knows, even when I cried in the night.